When you are in a down point in life, and you feel you are not doing the right thing, you will have to figure out, how to react to that.
You didn’t have it easy and you feel you hate yourself more than ever. You talk with everyone and complain about the problems, except with yourself.
You are only giving orders to yourself and expecting everything to be done smoothly.
Talk with him/her, your inner voice. Please listen to what they have to say. They know you much better than you think others do.
Always remember that, success comes from these tough moments and you have to be the first person to believe in that.